Spices For Life

Coming to the end of First Year

13th October 2008, 3 weeks before the semester end and that will conclude my first year at Murdoch. One more year to go before i graduate and this mean form next year onward, i will not be able to see her anymore Is that consisted a good news or bad news for me? It's been quite awhile since that day came, i have not yet forget, what is the thing that make me so hard to forget, is it i'm still holding on and not letting her go? I really wanted to let go, but mentally i'm still not admiting that I already lose her.

What is actually in my mind? All my friends said that you should be the one that know the best, but i always told them that I really have no idea what is in my mind and sometime i have a feeling that the mind that I have for 25 years, seem like not mine and it suppose to be belong to someone else. I just want a new mind and a set of new thinking that can make me that i am alive again and like dragging myself evey single day, it just very tired.

Can someone out there that happen to read my blog, can enlighten me and give a light for my path?

posted by xing @ 5:58 PM