Bad MOod
Today kind of "sway" & angry, first thing is that i was checked by provost when i get my laptop to my office. They spotted alot of illegal items that is not suppose to be in the camp. Luckily all my stuffs are related to my current work. My officer came down to help me fight for my right...although it is not right to bring all the stuffs here. But i need all this to do my work, if they really got to do anything to me, i have no words to said.
Secong thing is that, the show side people are quite irresponsible. My officer had passed them a work to do, as their officer agree to help us, in the end they pushed back the work back to us...and the dateline is drawing near....now i have to think a way to refine my work and show to my commander... they are putting a deep "shit" on my head now. I'm afraid that i cannot deliver the work out and is not that i'm not able to finish it. Guess that i have to go back camp tomorrow, to finish up my stuffs. The problem is should i go back or should i not ? so headache.... all thanks to the show side personnel.
SuNBUrN
Haizz...ganna sun burn again... red hands and black face.... cause by the reheasal. today is quite a tried day, nothing to do but staring at the computer screen, doing my work. Actually feel like going out, but just dun know can go where and no accompanies as what i can say.
Think my fate with her is getting slimmer and slimmer.Is not that i neber put in effort, is she that doesn't put in effort. If she don't feel like touching relationship again, we can be friend as i won't mind. Everytime i sms her, she will not reply me or took her a very long time to reply me. Is she just that busy till no time to even type a sms? I don't think so. Anyway, if she wan to carry on like tat, slowly we are just a "hi Bye" friends or not even friends anymore.
"SpEeD DowN"
Nothing much had happen in the camp this week, beside that alot of video to handle and some other stuffs to settle in the camp and outside camp. Seeing my friend so stress on the admin work, fee like helping him to carry some of his load, but too bad i really know little about this work and i also cannot help much. Feel so Guilt. I'm just hoping that everything can settle fast, so that my friend and i no need to stress so much on the work and so does the officers.
I begin to realise that i am making fool of myself that she doesn't mean anything, is i that think too much and think too far away. Thinking that things will go smooth and fine if i did this, i was wrong all awhile. So avoid making the same mistake again, i started to "Slow down" the progress and maintain a certain "distance" and communication between her, till she ready to have a brand new start with relationship. Old saying "Good things are worth to wait and priceless, only TIME can buy good things". Ha ha... like hope for the best.
StResSFUl WeeK
One Video is completed, tomorrow going to the other camp to finalise the whole video and the clip will counted as done....YUppI...~~ (*v*). Don't know why today i work till, i felt giddy and feel sleepy as well, haha... muz be lack of sleep.
Day by day and hours by hours, NDP is drawing nearer and my 'Leave & OFF' clearance are also drawing nearer... 2 more months, i can relax my whole self and play like mad for the next 1 month.
My mind is still floating with choices on "Should i go study onboard or i should study part time in singapore?" feel so confuse now. My mum encourage me to go onboard, because study part time takes a longer time to complete. If i choose to go oversea, i will lose a big great opportunity of my life...(*Secret*) haha..., wa hard to choose...one wrong move, everything will go wrong le.
"Opportunity & Career" hard choices.
Nowadays have some family problems somemore....it all start off from my dad again....haizzz.... don't know what i can do to "pump" some words into my dad's brain, so as he can quit doing that and don't hurt mum again. It seem to me that some main problems, my mum will share with me and ask me what should i do if i am in her shoes. Guess what, what can i comment, if i comment wrongly, it will hurt my parents then i really don't know how to solve the problem. I don't want a small problem to grow and become a major problem. HeadaChe arrhhhzzz.....
