ConFUsEd N ComPLiCaTeD
Im so confuse with certain things and i think im a complicated guy rather than a simple guy. Complicated guys are guys that can get along very easily and where things are get deeper, that what the complicated part plays in. As for simple guy, they are just far too simple that no one doesn't know how get close to him/her.
Confusion are things that you think are complicated and impossible to solve or something that happen too any times. Where do i stand... complicated / confused.
Arrhhhh...so confused, really i want to know where do i stand... friendship / relationship border. All not in both.
At last i can get to chat with her in msn for awhile, really awhile. She is busy with her tests and reports, that why she is not free to entertain this boring guy of me. So sad...
Big EVEnts...
Finally, other big event is over, but more to come. The other big event is the media brief, that is abrief where most of the media will be attending and get to know more about the NDP. This mean that i have lot to work on for the next few weeks/months. Today the rehearsal was quite good, as it is quite cooling but as usually, very tiring. The whole parade is getting more and more grand as all the participants are attending the rehearsal, this mean that the gap holes are getting slimmer. Hope the upcoming rehearsal will be a good and great one.
About my current situation. I found that she is avoiding the question that i have asked earlier ago. once i mention about the question, she will stop "smsing" me. No matter how i sms her, she will not reply. Or she will say that she is very busy at the moment. I think i don't have the fate to be with her. God want me to be selfish to her and he don't want us to be reachable, so be it. I will try my very best to get hold of her and give her the happiness that i can give her. I know till now, she cannot feel my sincerity or effort i have put in. But one day, i will make it and show/prove it to her.
Rushing WeEK
So rushing...so many things to tie up and confirmed. Next week another big event coming, don't know got to burn how many midnight oil le. Still sourcing for video sound tracks... really have no idea where to source for the songs.
1 week past...no respond no reply of her sms and no news from her. Is she really so so busy? Never see a poly student so busy until like this one. She is the first one. Haizz.... so hard to understand and catch what she is thinking about.
ShoCking BIRTHday
This year i have a shocking and surprise birthday. A birthday that i ever had, that is no one have ever done this to me before. Ling, at 11.58 pm (05-05-06) came to my house with a birthday cake. At first, i thought she was with her friends hanging out somewhere, i have no idea that she had rushed back just to brought the cake to me....at the point of time, my eyes were wide open and doesn't know what to say, but lot of thank yous on my expression. Although it was only a short period, but it is enough for me to remember forever. We sang birthday song together with my younger bro and i had make a wish, a wish i really really hope that it will come true one day. I really can't imagine that if my parents were in, what would be their expressions, "SHOCKED" or "A SMILE" on their faces.
On my birthday itself, we both decide to catch a show, she like to watch at the Cathay Cineplex, but the online system was down. Without any thought, i rushed out of my house straight to the Cathay Cineplex to get the tickets and then went back to our meeting place where i suppose to meet her. When we got into the train, i told her that i have bought the tickets, not online but phsyically went down to the Cineplex to bought the tickets, at that point of time, she was so surprise and asked me why i did that, as she said we can watched at other places. I replied to her that you liked to watched at that Cineplex, so i will tried my best to get tickets at the cineplex. I know that she was touched at the moment.
Straight after the show, we went for dinner at CHIJMES, at a restaurant called " ESMIRADA", which served European Food. We ordered a set meal, when the appetizes came, we both were abit shocked that the gralic bread that we called was so long and cute, we took some photo of that before we started to eat. Both of us have "KEBAB" for our main dish, the "KEBAB" taste great with red wine...hmmm......tasty. We chat alot, tried to catch up with each other. What can i said was that i have a nice and romantic birthday. A day not to be forgotten. 
Pics taken at "CHIJMES"
Period of AnnoY
Its being a week that she is back from England...not once i have gone out with her beside going to the gym. This weekend, i will be dating her out to celebrate my birthday. Is it because of that, she will come out with me ? Is she entertaining me? or she really mean to celebrate my brithday? Questions are all floating around my mind and make me cannot focus sometime. What is she really thinking about and what she really want?
Avoiding me??? Hiding something that she don't wish to tell?? Arrhh...I'm going mad, really mad. If this saturday i can get hold of her hand, i have win half of her heart, and half to go. the other "Half" is the sincerity that i'm going to show her.
Am i thinking too much...?? She must be busy with her studies, should i just leave her alone till she really needs me, then i appear in front of her?
Question and Question, but no answers...???
